Monday, May 30th, 2005
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1:32 pm - This Is The thing People
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ok well ever since january 28th i think i've been dating a boi. His name Is Traivs Hopson and i really like him. I know that you dont have to love everyone you date and i have never loved before. I am young and have Alot of time for this "love" thing. I also realize that most guys are dicks and mine is no different. lol. He left me for the first whole week of summer and never called to say or anything and you know i think im ok wiht that cause in the end he's the one who's doing to be hurting. I still really like him but he's kinda like joe in the movie "say anything" (a new movie i picked up at goodwill) I work the next 4 days and im happy im working the day he comes back. He doesn't diserve my time right now because to him, i dont diserve his. (I suck ass at spelling i know) Me and him have "shared ourselves" with eachother, but it didn't reall change my veiws on him. If anything i found out that it is really no biggy.
well im tired and have to get ready for work tomorrow.
bye people
Have a great summer
peace
current mood:  i feel it
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Monday, December 27th, 2004
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9:11 pm
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Untell recently i have felt nothing but hate in my heart because it is easier to feel that instead of sorrow or pain. Anyone would have to agree with me on that. But in the last week i have met a guy who has changed me for the time being. Paul is now my boy friend and i do love him terribly. He is some what ghetto and talks very much like an escaped convict secret code but I figure it fun to try and understand. WHY you ask. Because i understand one thing about him the fact that he loves me and that i love him.
Things might be turning around for me
YAY
bye bye for now
britney
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1rags| cunt
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Sunday, December 12th, 2004
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9:40 am
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hey people
well im starting a new me in a way that im veyr proud of. Im getting new frineds and forgetting old one (or trying to at least) and im reconnecting with some old good bf's and buddies. It's all good. I have made so many new frineds it isn't funny anymore. well yeah it is b/c almost all of them are older than me. There's like 10 people on the bus and about 300 off of the bus. Seniors and juniors and smores and yes i still have freshman friends. Anyways it's jacobs b day today and his party was lastnight and i painted a truck and gave that to him and then i made him pretty damn good card too. Im pround of it at least and watnot. Im trying to get cammy u from her undisturbed slumber and well it isn't working. I wanted to go to the movies today but my mother might not let me seing as it is my brothers b day but maybe while he is taking a nap or something. PLaying with his new toys. ANYTHING. I have to go to a movie. It isn't the movie it's really wats going to be waiting for me there. I can't wait.
current mood:  somthin at the back of my mind
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1rags| cunt
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Sunday, December 5th, 2004
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3:17 pm
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Well things couldn't be better. Well, ..... they could but it would be hard. Well, not that hard well you get it things are good right now and it's soo tight. It's like i have 2 bfs and its all good. Lol. Anyways Im good wiht everyone except for those who have a small mind and can't get over some shit that i did to help out camy but it's all good b/c real friends wouldn't do that to me adn plus my real friends wouldn't be soo stupid as to go against me with everyone on my side. God life is good right now. Anyways ill talk to you people later busy
current mood:  b/c i am (simple)
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Thursday, November 25th, 2004
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10:19 pm - well
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Well ok people you all were right that guy is and was bad news for me you all were right and i was wrong. horribly wrong and i don't wanna be that wrong again. Anyways thanksgiving was an ass and so was the da before it. All october and November have been ass kickers. I got almost all failing grades on my last report card and have lost some great friends and you knwo none of it whatso ever had to do with drugs or sex it just had to do with a boi and well im sry and all for putting all the stress on him and everything and for making him hate me and for not being all around good enough for him. I'm sry that i was so much of a problem and everything. I want you back in my life and i'll do whatevr it takes for it to be like that. i'm sry and i lvoe you no matter how much it freaks you out.
I'll talk to everyone later im feeling blue and down right about now
current mood: Don't know why things died
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Friday, October 15th, 2004
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10:36 pm - haha nothin
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WELL..... my partie is coming up as some of u all know and i have made new friends oevr this fight with tina. it has been going on for a while now and well. it's been hard on her and easy on me. if only she would quit lying that she beat me up seeing as she only touched me twice. lol. i don't know. it's really funny tho b/c i caught her trying to take some friends away form me and to cheat on her bf and me and her bf are better friends than me and her were so i sort of told him and i got proof and everything so she went down quick. it was a quick battle. I will win the war tho. muahahaha.
anyways about that arty of mine. it's on the 23rd at my place and there will me pumkins to smash and food to eat my reading of my profile is as follows:
"party at my place babe dress up, come neaked, come hungry and ready to party this is going to be fun. old scary movies to watch. pumkins to smash (like last year.) people to punk and food to eat. dares to be dares. truths to tell and fears to overcome.no gf's bf's or friends... this is the night where i rule all."
i know i know it's so over rated and all but it will be fun. u knwo a place to hang out for a while and for me to "reconnect" with my best byddies. i love them all so much and i will stand with them forever and ever. lol. unless they get caught with something then they are on their own lol. "who's that ur talking about, never seen the person in my life."
anyways ill keep u posted on everything.
im bored
BLUE MONKEY STORY -ill sav eit tell next time
britney
p.s i passed out today
i was at the doctors office or something and they like took too much blood too fast and i got dizzy and passed out for about 20 mins. lol. how fun would that be if the pain hadn't had come.
ttyl
still dont have a date for the dance (and looking)
current mood: b/c i thought it was cute, ok?
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1rags| cunt
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Tuesday, October 12th, 2004
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7:27 pm - goody but blanky
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It has been a good day with nothing really great about it. Same ol' things have happened as same ol' thing will always. Lats night was good. I laughed my ass off at this Will and Grace TV show. I love that show. It gets me everytime. Good night went on throughout the night and stopped when 4 became 14. You know who you are. I'm koolish tho. uhh nothing much really ill type in again tonight or tomarrow when i get home.
I LOVE YOU BABE
britney
current mood:  it's all good 4 now
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Monday, October 11th, 2004
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1:43 pm - hey people
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well i have been off shopping all of today for all of my party stuff and that was alot of fun. with mum and little jacob (althought he was screaming the whole time) it was fun. went for a ride on the motorcycle just a wee little one but the party is going to be very fun. i almost have everything for it too. today has been ok so far. i feel like cammy is blowing me off alot more tho. u know, she is like my best buddy and i just sort of feel un loved by her right now. im sort of not here today. lastnight was really good tho with matt at the movies. we saw veronica and vanessa there too and they saw the forgotten i think that they cried too but im not too sure. anyways
ttyl at a later time
britney
current mood: i really don't give a crap
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Sunday, October 10th, 2004
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2:50 pm - uhh... yeah... right, wat he said.... ???
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Today has been good. I just got home from my grandma's house where i spent the night .We baked cookies, and got everything for the party. MY PARTY"S GONNA ROCK. i also went to alex's party for a while and it was ok i still get to dare someone to do something and i think i might just have something in mind. muahahaha. im over everyone im pretty sure with some help from a person i don't think that i even know. I would still go out with then foolish me but i am over them. Im going to the movies with matt we are going to go see taxi and im almost done cleaning my room for my newish oldish computer and desk. i get a netcard too. how sweet is that. and that's only for my b-day yayyy christmas. uhh if the person who has been sending me stuff please tell me who they are. i wanna talk with you uhh yeah. once again signing out for now
It's all good.
britney
current mood: im content right now
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Friday, October 8th, 2004
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5:41 pm
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ok people here is the dealy-o if you wanna know everything read this. Ive been so cold latly to alot of people not laughing as much as i normally do or anything you know and it is mostly b/c of me giving my heart to a good for nothin' and him ripin it apart b/c he "has a girl." And i just wanna scream. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrr.... ok that is enough. anyways me and this guy sort of,.. how can i say this,.... struck a deal. He was going to come and get me whenever he missed me so i probably wont be back to my normal self for a long time b/c it has taken him almost a year to even get this far with me. and probably when he does come back ill screw up again and wanna kill myslef or something and then this will just happen all over again. life is a bitch to me my theripist said so. lol. well i really don't know wat else to say. if this guy that i gave my heart to reads this he is going to get pissed but i like doing this. (i swore to him that i wouldn't tell anyone about wat went on but i don't know how to delet anything) hmmm interseting. i don't really feel compelled to live anymore so maybe someone can help me break from this. probably no one but him. i just want him to know i guess that i love him and that i will never hurt him no matter if he hurts me (like he already has). i guess this is it for now ill come back and tell mroe when im done counting the rain drops and stars that will be out soon.
i love you
britney
current mood: i feel cold today, oh so cold
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2rags| cunt
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Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
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9:57 am - My mood could be better
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Ok people well i was on aol last night and i was tlaking to Ethan. He wanted to talk to beau so i was like ok so i invited him and beau into a chatroom. Beau was like uhhh ok and wasn't really talking it was ethan who tlaked that most. I told him to quit b/c it was either going to do two things a) make me mad and wanna kill him or b) make beau mad and wanna kill him. it ended up being a and now i wanna kill him and get him low but another thing that happened last night sort of seemed like a dream not a good nor a bad dream but just, a dream. i was talking to dylan and he was like thanks alot and i was like sry b/c i thought that he was being sarcastic. He was like, no really thank you but now i feel bad and i was like why (he and his long time gf had just broken up but it could be for another reason also and you all are only hearing the end of the convo, we had already talked about his ex.) anyways i was like why do you feel bad and he said b/c i have treaded you so badly and you have been soo good to me and i was like well i can drink to that. he said that he also wanted to make it up to me and we started going through somethings that he could do for me and finally i came up with the thing that if neither me nor him got a date to the dance that he would take me. He agreed and said that he would probably take me anyways but of what i had done for him and said that even if he did get asked. (the chances of me getting asked are low so i took this as a sign, lol) and so now i sort of have a dateand a back up date to the dance and thats great b/c im already nervous about it and about going to school on monday b/c of what had happened that night. anyways i think that you all have had enough for one day.
ill keep you posted
britney
current mood:  anxious
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1rags| cunt
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Saturday, September 25th, 2004
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4:23 pm
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Well Immnot dating carter anymore, infact, im over him. ALL THE WAY over him. lol. anyways, I like two different other guys now and since no one who knows my sn on here knows them I guess that i can tell you. It is a guy named Ethan and a guy named Matt B. I like Matt alot b/c he is the nicest person in the whole world! And plus i met him through my sister he is somehow related to her BY MARRAGE!!!! NOT BY BLOOD!!! I swear it. lol. that would be weird. but anyways the other day i hugged him for the first time and he was like half way picking me up and half way carried me to his locker and i was like my class is the other way and so he let go FINALLY and smiled his best smile. But now he is out camping with his MOTHER. EWWWWW. lol jk matt. I LOVE YOU!! haha anyways about ethan well i was tlaking to him and told him that I had gone out wiht beau and beau now has a mohawk and ehtna got like offened or something and was like i can't beleive im talking to you, and so as you now guessed he blocked me but then last night i started tlaking to someone and his friends got on his sn and was like ur fun to tlak to and i was like thank you lol. anyways ethans real name is something else but i can't tell you all b/c i was sworen not to tell anyone. It sucks but im going to get to tease ethan now and Im REALLY REALLY RTEALLY HAPPY about that. lol. YAY!!! And thats about it right now, Im at alex's and she is like the best along with cammy. lol I LOVE YOU BOTH!!! she is showing me how to do some koolish things on here so i have to go sit eat and learn. oh wat fun. bye bye for now.. = )
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1rags| cunt
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Saturday, August 28th, 2004
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3:20 pm - So Much For My Happy Ending: This Is Me
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For the people who are reading this you know what i ahve gone through. What i havn't, what i like, and what i don't. You all know i like music i sometimes hate people and that over all i think school needs not be wiht other people. You knwo that my friends are my life and that i do what i feel like doing when i feel it and there is barly anything you all can do about it. You know that I would GLADLY give my lafe for anyone that I know or knew no matter what they have done to or for me. If you didn't know any of these things about me, you know nothing about me.
I have been having some trouble as you all must knwo with my new/old boyfriend, Carter. I do like him but it seems as if we have fallen appart. He is hanging around a girl i know nothing of except what Carter somewhat tells me and some others tell me about her. I don't want to fall apart but it's hard with only one person trying.
If you all would like to help me please feel free to or else I will deal with this on my terms. So you all will have to be happy wiht my choosings.
Good day and Good night
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Monday, August 2nd, 2004
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2:53 pm - Nothing At All
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Well I'm on the phone with Tracy now, lol. She wants a bf so bad so i'm lending her beau for a while or she is just going to take him. Lol. Which ever I'm not that needy so I don't care (that much). Hmmmmm. You know I was thinking. If you look at love from a birds eye view it seems starnge and ever-changing. I find it most intriging.
Well i am sorry for not keeping you all mroe updated but i fixed the problem with my friend, sort of. I still like him alot though. I don't know what to do either, so if anyone has any advice at all then please tell me anything and everything. please.
k/n/i/v/e/s
a/n/d
d/a/g/g/e/r/s
-my anti-lamb
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Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
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8:26 pm - Nothing really
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I'm not really in a great mood, my mother is sick, i had to let my snake go, my grandpa is yelling at my for no damn reason and I just got of working an 8 1/2 hour shift which i had to do everything b/c the little old ladise really just can't leave there stichery for one little second. Also, we found a dead opposim in our backyard and it stinks so much that I can't even go outside. I pray for the souls you have to take that away, or touch it, or get near it.
I wish I could tell you all more about why else I'm sad and depressed but the truth is if I did tell you all. And the person found out, I would be in really really really big trouble although if you really wanna know. Then ask me. There are two of them that everyone has a right to know. lol. Well I'm new at this so forgive me if I'm short on the wordy parts.
K/n/i/v/e/s
a/n/d
d/a/g/g/e/r/s
- my anti-clown
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